Mujhe nahi pata mera bhoot kya hai

Mujhe nahi pata mera bhoot kya hai
Kaun mere poorwajon ke bhaaiyon ke bachche hain
Kaanse ke bartan the ya fasal ki kyari thi
Mujhe nahi pata meri nasle kitni sari thi

Kitni vidya apni hai kitna fann udhaar ka
Aaj ka mere ghar ka pata kitna hai hathyaar ka
Jalaata raha dafnaata raha main martaa hi raha
Kaise bhi jeeyun main maut se darta hi raha

Mujhe nahi pata mere dushmano ke kya naam the
Teen sau saal ki yaaddasht, nau sau saal ki bardaasht thi
Ya paanch hazaar saal se hum khud hi ke gulaam the
Mujhe nahi pata mere dushmano ke kya naam the

Wo kaun the jinhone hamare mandir tod diye
4Aur wo kaun the jo hamare mandiro me humein hi ghusne nahi dete the Mujhe nahi pata mere dushmano ke kya naam the
Avtaaron ke bhagwaano ke paigambaron ke kya paigaam the

Mujhe maaloom hai main aaj bhi khwaishon ka ek pyada hoon
Thoda sach thoda aantrik thoda muqammal thoda adha hoon
Kal bhi loriyon ko sach maanker jane kitno ko mujrim banaye hai
Maine samay ki shuruaat se khud ko sapne hi dikhaye hain

Do waqt ki roti mere aaj aur kal ke liye, thodi khudgarzi agli nasal ke liye

Main kal bhi be reyaya be mazhab be hisaab tha

Sone ki sarhadon ko mitti ka jawab tha
Main aaj bhi khuda ka banaya ek pet ka ghulaam hoon

Jab jab maine bhooton ko mitti se nikala hai
Maut se darne walon ka basera hi paya hai
Phir bhi talwaaron ki kahaniyon ka zaayeka hat ta nai
Bhoot ki afwaaon ka nasha kat ta nahi

Mujhe nahi pata mera bhoot kya hai
Kaun mere poorwajon ke bhaaiyon ke bachche hain
Kaanse ke bartan the ya fasal ki kyari thi
Mujhe nahi pata meri nasle kitni sari thi

2nd April 2016

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